
many friends of mine must think that I am damn disgusting! hahaha..
I used to be the one condemning girls who neglect their friends when they are in a relationship. Now that mine has been with me for 1 yr plus already and i must apologise to my girls that I have not been going out with you as I have been spending so much time with my honey~ haha.. *cue to puke now*
Our r/s has been on rocky ground and we have both never thought it will come to 1 yr plus since we met. Last night he was asking me how should be celebrate our anniversary, which is next year Valentines.
We had 4 months of guess and tease in Nov 2008 till we officially become a pair in 15th Feb 2009 and it has filled me with happiness and pain and sometimes tinge of lonliness when we fight.
Last night's romance had sweetened my memory of us and made me realise that happiness can be so simple. supper @ Mac D, tiny quarrel followed by a swear on his life that I have not lied to him. haha.. yes, I swear on his life, if I lied, he will die. So serious ahh.. but I can swear because I know the truth, I will never lie to him, he smiled and that boyish smile and the bear hug that followed will be with me all my life. We had bowling which ended with an arrogant man and a throughly defeated woman. Haha.. Damn angry with him man.. never give chance at all.. but its good to see my boy happy.
He told me "I love you" in such a stupid way... I knew I would win.. some how I know that he loves me although he refuse to admit it.
Finally he spent the night in my room which I keep asking him to since months ago. He refuse to come into my house cause he does not like my siblings to know we are together again. Maybe he also doesn't want my siblings to think I am a loose girl who brings man home, but hey, we have been together for so long, he should really loosen up there. I hate going to his place because I have to hide all the time, so I want him to come to my house, which he doesn't have to be discreet, but he insisted on discretion.
Still, last night felt so good because he was with me till dawn. I love to sleep in his arms as his hug me tightly as if he is afraid that I will disappear and kiss me on my cheeks and neck now and then.
Do I love him? To quote him, I have no idea any more, but this is some kinda of commitment that I have put myself into. I like him and I see myself spending the rest of my life with my dearest honey.