Since then, I had actually got myself a 'bf' and a LDR for 1 week plus.
Since he had been gone, I had heard so many 'I love you's, I thought that I must be hearing wrongly.
Don't get me wrong, it is not that I do not love him. I do. As much as the line is sweet to my ears,
and made my heart flutters, I can't help but to wonder why the shower of such words?
As if by repeating it I will be under his ownership. I do feel that way.
He has been drinking a lot since he got back, and I find myself abstaining from going club and
pub to drink.
Yet, I would love to. I need to get those drinking colleagues out for more drinks.
Even though I am still in this r/s (which sometimes I do not feel that it is a r/s) I want to get out of it.
The trust is no longer there.
Yes I have won the little charade btw me and VD. Yet I can't shake off the shadow the betrayal had
done to me. It had shaken my self esteem and confidence I used to have.
I am no longer the same. I need my confidence back.
Do I Love You?
Yes I do.
But I can't take this any more.
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